You have to rock the floor, before someone knocks the door.


-> you have to make your presence felt and then people start reaching you. its true for both, presence felt in good way or bad way.

Escaping the potholes...

Is it true that sometimes and some of us need to sit in a deep and dark pothole for long to realize that they actually don't like it there? Or they really sit there long enough to realize a promise within, that they shall never return to this state again even if it needs to fight the most difficult state of inherent laziness inertia? The laziness which is like extreme drunken state which makes us choose to stay fallen beside the street over trash than cozy bed at home.

The castle of insanity has to break where realization of "what I hate and what I love" is forbidden. Inertia has to break into pieces enough to challenge phoenix. Illusions shall be illusion-ed and my dreams shall become next phoenix... ashes are preserved with me. Amen!!!

Listening to "come undone"...

Listening to "come undone" by Simon Le Bon, almost after 6 years, was a mix of happy nostalgia and changing hopes and perceptions, if not beliefs. I used to listen to it on a go for the whole day and mostly while writing programs on my computer and sometimes I used to listen to its lyrics and most of the time I used to work in the rhythm of its music.

6 years... time needed for a sperm and ovum to dissolve away to start a journey from inception till evolution of a visible citizen who can fight for survival within the game driven by unsure rules of the society.

...Where you are asked to believe first to understand instead of other way around. But why would you like to understand when you believe at the very first place?

...Where rules are told in a definitive manner yet you are asked to take a probabilistic approach.
Where rules are told to convey they can be changed by the able. And where "able" is defined? Well it means it can be anyone, go ahead change it, if someone can dare to stop let him dare, and you dare to change. Basically not different from Jungle. Rules are smart confusions in place like the bushes in jungle behind which Lion hides to prey, who actually drives the rule book.

...Song was "who do you need... who do you love... when you come undone?" 6 years changed the perceptions... journey continues...


PS: "Probability" was the subject which I hated most as topic when I was confronted to it for the first time during my High school. I always used to wonder why I don't understand while some of my other classmates got it easily enough to solve the problems faster than me. My teacher used to say, its easy why don't you get it!!! He used to love it actually on the contrary!!! Now I know, I disliked the basic philosophy of "unsure" in the nature of this topic.

We are not one...

I don't mind your looking at me.

I do mind your coming back and telling me that I wanted so.


If it doesn't matter to you, you can carry on,

As I don't mind your existence sometimes which ends where mine starts.

After all we are not ONE.

----Written in social welfare of the system I live in.